Cywinski Wilcox Family

Jadyn Funny

2009-06-28T07:37:00.002-04:00

Let me first start by saying that Jadyn is aware that she has 2 Mommies and a Donor. She isn't exactly sure WHERE the Donor steps in and what he does....lol I just tell her that he gave a piece of his body to help make her.
Anyway......
A few days ago JJ and her friend Missy were playing in her little pool. They wanted to play house. So, JJ played the baby and Missy played the Mommy for a little while. It then came time to switch roles. Missy says "Ok I will be the baby now and you be the Mommy." Jadyn then exclaims " NO, you be the baby and I Will be the Donor."............
LMAO......

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Yesterday we were at McDonald's Play place by our house. Jadyn is couting the kids.
"Hey Mommy ,look, 1.....2....3...... kids."
" Good Job JJ".
" And Mommy there is 1....2......3...... Donors."
Lmao
I had to explain that we are parents... not donors..... Children don't usually interact with their Donors....lol

Gay Marriage for NY

2009-05-28T08:52:00.002-04:00

"Why does JJ have TWo Mommies??"

2009-05-26T20:13:00.002-04:00

Our Little neighbor boy Jerrod(3) and his Mommy had a conversation like this ( Teri is the mom's name).
J: " Mommy, why does JJ have two mommies?"
T: Well, That is just the way it is."
J: "Where is the daddy?"
T: "There is no daddy Jerrod, just two mommies."
J: " They can go buy a Daddy."

After Teri told me the conversation with her son I started to question him a little.....

Me: " Hey Jerrod, Where exactly is there a Daddy store? Have you ever seen one?"
J: "No".
Me: " Hmmmmm, I wonder where we can get a daddy then?"
J: " You can have my daddy because I want Two mommies.".......

LMAO!!!!

Updates on Us :-)

2009-05-04T14:17:00.002-04:00

Everything here is going well :-) Jadyn is FINALLY pooping on the potty. Just when I thought I might possibly believe she would really go to high school using a diaper to poop..... she got it!! Why does it always seem just when I think I have finally had enough she starts doing what I want her to do?? She just knows these things, I swear!

Last week Jadyn and I went to Tractor Supply to get some bird food and some seeds so I could start a little garden with J. They had some baby chicks and ducks in the store. They were so cute and Jadyn just couldn't get enough. Jadyn was standing there looking at the cute little birds when she decided to touch the heat lamp would be a fantastic idea. She received burns to 3 of her fingers. My first thought was to get her out of the store and get something cold on it. AND That is just what I did. I called her doctor and they told me just to bandage it after all of the blistering was done. I then decided I better call Tractor Supply and let them know that they need to cover those heat lamps if they are going to be keeping them in a child's reach. The manager acted like a complete Doodah..... " Well. most of the heat lamps are covered." Well idiot, MOST is obviously not good enough.
I then called the corporate offices. All I wanted was to make sure they keep the lamps covered so no more bitty fingers get scorched. I just wanted to call this to their attention before it happened to another child. I know A LOT of people are sue happy. They are pretty lucky they came across me....... I have better things to do than to sit in a court room over something as minor as this. If it would have been her face or was going to cause drastic scarring that would be a whole other issue.
Anyway, Jadyn is healing up nicely and almost all of the blistering had reabsorbed already!! 'Tractor Supply is sending her a $25.00 gift card. They really didn't have to. I just don't want any more baby fingers to get burned.
Sue is falling to pieces....lol She had a groin injury way back in November?!?! Hell, I don't remember when it was. She is still having pain from that and is scheduled to go see a surgeon on Wednesday. She is also suffering from a pretty painful case of tennis elbow right now. So she is about as helpful as a rock right now....lol It is no fault of her own so I guess I will keep her around for a little longer :-)

I like Bubble Baths Too!!!

2009-04-18T21:28:00.004-04:00

EVERY single time Teppo sees Jadyn in the tub..... he thinks he needs to join her. He was also quite fond of bubbles :-)

Conversations with Jadyn

2009-04-17T21:13:00.003-04:00

On the way home this evening Jadyn told me she had TWO Brothers. This started the conversation:
Me: Oh? Who are they?"
Jadyn: "Teppo and Tyson."
Me: "Did you know you actually do have bothers and sisters? They are your Donor siblings. Remember when I told you about you have two mommies and a donor? Well, these kids have the same donor as you."
Jadyn: "Mommy? Remember when you told me if I poop on the potty I could get a Donor Bike?"
Me: Ok, this conversation went well!"

LOL

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Some Cute things Jadyn says:

Hot Sudge Funday ( Hot Fudge Sunday )
Hostable ( Hospital )
Brown Milk (Chocolate Milk)

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A Song Jadyn was singing in the tub the other day:
"Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
Like a diamond in the sky
I want Mom to wash my hair
I don't want to go to school
Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
Like a Diamond in the Sky"

Things I say daily over and over and over......

2009-04-14T10:48:00.003-04:00

"Stop It!"
"Pick it up!"
"Stop picking your nose!"
"Get your fingers out of your butt!"
"Go wash your hands!"
"Put your clothes back on!"
"Go atleast put underwear on!"
"Would you PLEASE stop going outside naked!"
"Quit putting your junk on my desk!"
"Stop playing in the water!"
"Soap isn't free you know!"
"The puppy has your toy!"
"Stop putting water in all of your little cooking things. They just get spilled all over the floor!"
"Go find a towel!"
"Would you PLEASE just listen to me?!?!?!"
"I told you that was going to happen. If you would listen we could have avoided that fall/injury!"
"Leave my boobs alone. They are not yours to poke, slap, pinch or smack."
"Could I PLEASE just go to the bathroom by myself ONE time today?"

There are several more but these I thinbk are the ones I have used so far today and it isn't even 11:00 yet!!!!

New Tattoos

2009-04-05T21:08:00.001-04:00

My Tattoo:

Sue's Tattoo:

Me and Sister having fun......

2009-03-31T08:41:00.002-04:00

NEEDED: Boy's 3T clothes

2009-03-23T09:45:00.003-04:00

I am in need of boy's 3T clothes if you can spare some. One of my good friends niece house burned to the ground lastnight. She has a 2 year old little boy. They lost everything. He is also in need of some gently used sippy cups.

If you can send anyone else to the blog that can help, PLEASE do. I am willing to help with the shipping expenses.

Thanks to anyone that can help!

Baby Boy

2009-03-22T13:48:00.003-04:00

The Importance of walking.....

2009-03-20T08:10:00.004-04:00

The Importance of Walking.

Walking can add minutes to your life.

This enables you at 85 years old to spend an additional 5 months in a nursing home at $7000 per month.

My grandpa started walking five miles a day when he was 60. Now he's 97 years old and we don't know where he is.

I like long walks, especially when they are taken by people who annoy me.

The only reason I would take up walking is so that I could hear heavy breathing again.

I have to walk early in the morning, before my brain figures out what I'm doing..

I joined a health club last year, spent about 400 bucks. Haven't lost a pound. Apparently you have to go there.

Every time I hear the dirty word 'exercise', I wash my mouth out with chocolate.

I do have flabby thighs, but fortunately my stomach covers them.

The advantage of exercising every day is so when you die, they'll say, 'Well, she looks good doesn't she.'

If you are going to try cross-country skiing, start with a small country.

I know I got a lot of exercise the last few years,...... just getting over the hill.

We all get heavier as we get older, because there's a lot more information in our heads. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

Every time I start thinking too much about how I look, I just find a Happy Hour and by the time I leave, I look just fine.

For all of you out there with Bambinos

2009-03-18T08:29:00.003-04:00

HERE is a coupon for Carter's. I hope somebody can use it :-)

The Great Hunter

2009-03-17T10:05:00.004-04:00

I knew Teppo was going to be a special pup the minute I laid my eyes on him. 8 weeks old and already showing up the big dogs............ If you can't run with the puppy... stay on the porch....haha!!

Introducing Teppo Toblerone....

2009-03-16T20:07:00.005-04:00

Here is our new little family member, Teppo ( a Sabre Hockey player) Toblerone ( A chocolate candy bar). He is such a sweet baby boy! He has that yummy puppy breath. He sleeps more than he is awake right now. He is like having a newborn......lol.

Teppo is doing well at going potty outside. I am sure it helps we take him every hour or so. I take him 1-2 times in the night too. We have been quite busy since we picked him up on Saturday.

So, Here he is:

It's Time...... It's really really time......

2009-03-11T20:43:00.003-04:00

I got the call tonight that our little guy is ready to come home to us :-) We have plans to go pick him up on Saturday. My mom and nephew are coming up Saturday morning . My mom wanted to see the expression on Jadyn's face when we tell her he is hers. We canit wait!!

Never be afraid................

2009-03-09T08:08:00.001-04:00

You can only die once!!

Our New "Dude"

2009-03-08T20:40:00.003-04:00

I went to go visit our new little baby today. He is 6 weeks old. He isn't quite ready to come to his forever home yet. He isn't eating as well as he should be. He eats good, just not real good. So, I took a few photos of him.

The little girl holding him in the one photo is the "little owner" of the puppies. She is such a riot!! The pup is a little wet in his photos. He just got a little bath before I got there.

First Dentist Appointment

2009-03-05T17:22:00.003-05:00

Jadyn had her first dentist appointment today....... I know, a little late, huh?? I suppose it isn;t to bad though seeing as though she didn't have all of her teeth until she was almost 3...haha!! She made out well..... No cavities..... She does have a "tiny discolored" spot on one of her teeth but it could be nothing. I guess if it doesn't change by her next appointment they won't worry about it. She got her teeth cleaned, flossed and a flouride treatment.She got a new toothbrush (Tow Mater)..... bringing her grand total up to 7 toothbrushes in the bathroom....lol She got some yummy crest kids bubble gum toothpaste and a Princess flosser.Since Jadyn did so well she got to choose where she went to lunch today ( We had to wait 30 minutes because the flouride has to sit on their teeth that long before they can eat or drink.) She chose Pizza Hut!! Yummo.....

A new baby........

2009-03-02T08:53:00.005-05:00

Ok, so it isn't a HUMAN baby but it is still a baby. I went and put a deposit on a chocolate lab puppy on Saturday. We have his name picked out already BUT we are not sharing that info until we post a photo of him. He is 5 weeks old so, we still have to wait 3 weeks to get him. He is such a cute little honey boy!!

Oh yes, and we are NOT telling Jadyn until we go pick him up......... or I will not hear the end of it for 3 weeks.....lol

Nothing New

2009-02-24T07:49:00.003-05:00

There isn't really anything new to report. Life is boring right now......... I am sick of the cold and the winter already. We only have about 3 months left before it gets at least in the 50's. No wonder so many people I know are on anti-depressants.....lol Living in the North isn't always fun, but, it sure beats tornadoes and hurricanes!!!

Jadyn is good. She has had a few weird episodes of throwing up. Friday morning she woke up and threw up all over. She was then fine the rest of the day. She did the same thing yesterday. I wonder if it has anything to do with reflux or indigestion?? I guess if it continues we shall have to ring a call in to the Dr. Besides this, she is well. She has grown like an inch in the last month. She was short and stubby for a LONG time. She is actually starting to get some legs on her now....ha!!

Sue should be buying herself a new (used) car in the next few weeks. We are all pretty stoked about it. Now, Jadyn and I won't have to get up early to take Moma to work. Jadyn's new princess bed should be here soon too!! It was a special order and they said it would take 6-8 weeks. I think we are nearing that sometime soon........

See, I told ya, nothing real new to report......

Super Heroes have landed..............

2009-02-13T12:37:00.005-05:00

Super Sue and her Trusty Side Kick Jadyn:
The ReaL Hero:

Super Jadyn To The Rescue

2009-02-05T08:15:00.005-05:00

I just discovered this website. They make super hero capes. Not just any super hero cape though... REAL ONES :-) I had to order Jadyn the princess one. 10% of all of the proceeds go to a charity AND you can also donate a cape to sick and needy children.
For me I know there is nothing like feeding a child's imagination. I LOVE watching Jadyn and her imaginative play. She is so funny!! When she grows up all of her magic and imaginative play will be no more. So, I feed it as much as I can right now. I remember believing I was a super hero. I was so in to it.
Here are some photos of Jadyn's super hero suit. They are a little expensive but there is no price for an imagination.

The Man of THE House.....

2009-01-28T12:06:00.001-05:00

The husband had just finished reading a new book entitled,"You Can Be THE Man Of Your House."

He stormed to his wife in the kitchen and announced,
"From now on, you need to know that I am the man of this house and my word is Law. You will prepare me a gourmet meal tonight, and when I'm finished eating my meal,
you will serve me a sumptuous dessert. After dinner, you are going to go upstairs with me
and we will have the kind of sex that I want.
Afterwards, you are going to draw me a bath so I can relax. You will wash my back
and towel me dry and bring me my robe. Then, you will massage my feet and hands.
Then tomorrow, guess who's going to dress me and comb my hair?"

The wife replied, "The fuckin' funeral director would be my first guess."

Jadyn's new bed

2009-01-25T16:32:00.004-05:00

As some as you may or may not know or may or may not care Jadyn has slept with me for the past 2 years. We were living in an apartment that wouldn't allow us to get to her if there were a fire. So we let her be comfortable in our bed once she out grew her crib ( that was also in our room).

Well now we have moved to a house and she can have her OWN BIG GIRL room now. So, of course she has to have her own big girl bed. She told me she would like a princess bed. Well LOOK what she is getting:

I think I am just as excited as she is....lol Wer are getting the full size bed because it will grow with her. You can eventually remove all of the princess stuff and add other things. Like a higher lift, a desk, etc etc.

This is Me Bero the Saintly

2009-01-25T09:16:00.001-05:00

Check out my Dark Ages profile!

Check it Out

2009-01-19T11:48:00.003-05:00

As if I needed another blog..... right??

Sew I Think I Can Quilt

Busy Busy weekend

2009-01-11T20:57:00.004-05:00

We had a pretty busy weekend. We bought a used stackable washer and dryer from an older lady. Saturday we went to go pick it up. Thank God for our friend Ann because Sue and I could have never done it by ourselves. The washer and dryer are like brand new. We are so happy to finally NOT have to get quarters to do our laundry. The thing has run non stop since yesterday. I think we might be in love....haha!! We also got a ladder from my dad when we were home last weekend. Ann also helped us take a ton of things up to the attic! Poor Ann, she always get recruited when we need help....lol
Today I spent at least 4 hours in my bedroom putting things away, rearranging and cleaning. We are still a little out of sorts from when we moved here. I feel like I finally made quite a bit of progress around here. I also went outside ad burned a ton of paper and boxes. Jadyn, Moma and Tyson ( the dog) ran around and played in the snow while I was burning boxes.
Although our house still looks like it is quite possible a tornado came through..... we are getting there. We are almost finally all settled in. It sucks moving so close to the holidays. We have had NO time to do anything. I am so glad things are finally looking good :-)

I can't believe people........

2009-01-09T10:07:00.003-05:00

I posted on my blogs, craigslist and freecycle asking for measily one yard pieces of fabric to make blankets and quilts for needy sick children. NOT ONE person has stood up to donate 1 yard of child friendly fabric or ONE unused receiving blanket. Not ONE person........ that is sad...... seriously......

Wanted: one yard measurements of fabric

2009-01-08T08:56:00.003-05:00

I am in need of one yard measurements of fabric. I need 100% cotton, flannelette, or cotton knits. I am in the process of making things for charities. I thought perhaps if you have any of these fabrics laying around unwanted I will be very very happy to take them.

I also will take any unused receiving blankets.

I am willing to pay the shipping.

Please pass it along!!!

Thanks!!!

I'm not done, I can't be, I am only 32

2009-01-01T18:22:00.002-05:00

I keep have reoccurring dreams that I am either pregnant, breastfeeding or have a newborn baby. I have them ALL. THE. TIME. I wake up feeling all happy and fuzzy! Then reality hits. I don't have another. Don't get me wrong. I am so happy I have Jadyn. I am very very very thankful for her.
I NEED another one. I can't give up yet. I am not even at the age where I need to stop yet. I still have 10 years easily to keep trying. Maybe it is time to start trying again? I do KNOW I will not do injections or Invitro again. To expensive and time consuming. Not to mention STRESSFUL!
I am probably crazy to even consider trying again. What if I am wasting my time and money AGAIN? Do I really need the disappointment over and over and over again....again?? Was the psychic right that I would never physically carry my own child again? What if she was right? What if psychics are real? Time can change your future, right? Just because your future is headed one direction at any given time doesn't mean it can't change........right? right??
I must be stupid!

New Years Eve Party

2009-01-01T10:32:00.008-05:00

Sue, Jadyn and I had a great time last night. We stayed home. Jadyn and I made chocolate covered strawberries. We also had crackers, cheese, tostitos, salsa and buffalo blue cheese dip. There were also chocolate chip cookies and peanut butter whoopie pies for the sweet tooth in us. Well, more Jadyn and I have the sweet tooth. Sue isn't so big on sweet stuff.

I rented ( pay-per-view) Kung Fu Panda for Jadyn to watch @ about 10:00 p.m. At about 11:30 we started watching the New Year's events on t.v. Jadyn made it until 12:00 to watch the ball drop. Sue served us wine ( sparkling white grape juice) and we brought in the New Year with a "Happy New Year", a cheers, and a kiss. It was rather kind of fun :-)

The washed strawberries:

Jadyn taste testing the strawberries:

Melting down the chocolate:

The finished chocolate dipped strawberries:

Jadyn taste testing:

Yummy:

Helping cut up cheese:

Mmmmmmm:

Cheese and cracker plate:

Buffalo Bleu Cheese Dip ( My most favorite part):

Salsa and Bleu Cheese Dip:

My hopes for 2009......

2008-12-31T20:48:00.003-05:00

Well first let me start with the obvious things...
* A Happy and Healthy Family
* Financial stability
* For Jadyn to continue to grow, be happy, healthy, curious, adventerous, etc, etc......
* To lose some weight ( seriously, isn't that on everyone's list?)
* For my mom to continue to have a healthy heart ( she had a heart attack when she was 45). I still need her for atleast 40 more years ;-)
* For my friends to have a successful and Healthy year.

and other things.....
* To become a better quilter. Perhaps brave blocks with points.
* A new camera would be nice ( hint hint to Sue).
* Sue to buy a new ( used) car.
* Join the YMCA ( for Jadyn to have activities).
* Jadyn to start preschool at the YMCA.
* Get things up in my attic that are not in use.
* Take Jadyn more places to explore and discover.
* A family vacation would be superb.
* Have a fantatstic 4th Birthday Party for Jadyn. ( I Love Birthday Parties)
* Try and take more photos of Jadyn's every day life. Just snap shots will do.

2008 Recap

2008-12-31T18:48:00.002-05:00

This year was pretty uneventful for the most part. Well, compared to most people. So, let me recap what happened in 2008....
*My brother made his way in to prison.
* Our niece, Anna, was born.
* My grandfather passed away.
* My boy, Chipper, left us at 11.5 years old.
* I taught myself how to quilt.
* My photography did extremely well ( let's hope it is even better this year).
* We moved from our apartment we were in for 6 years to a house out in the country.
* Jadyn started to potty train. She is very good at peeing on the potty. Pooping is another story.
* We tried to conceive another baby and failed miserably. So, we gave up. ( This has been a 2 year struggle.
* Sue was diagnosed with Sleep Apnea. We now have that corrected with a C-pap machine.
* I no longer am awakened by Sue snoring. See previous line......

I am sure other exciting and not so exciting events happened but this is the things I can think of at this moment.

I hope you all have a FANTATSTIC New Year. Please if you are going out with friends and decide to tip the bottle..... Get a designated driver. Just think before you drive. You could kill a family in all your stupidness.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Another Quilt Top

2008-12-28T20:40:00.004-05:00

A few years ago my mom was in a "Big Brohter Big Sister Program". Where she is from they call it "Companions for Kids". My mom got a little companion named Sarah. We met her when she was 11. She had/has a very bad home life. Her mom was not mentally right at all. Sarah's mom had a baby when Sarah was about 12 or so. Sarah found herself pretty much raising her baby sister. It was just an awful life for a young girl to have.
Now at just a little over Sixteen Years Old, Sarah has had her own baby. Sarah has really no support or help from anybody. She has left her mothers home and is living with a friend. However, not one person in the household has a job. Sarah, being only 16, has plans to go back to school. I hope she does!! I really hope she amounts to more than what her mother was for her. Sarah seems to be a good mom, but she is young. To young to have to give up the rest of her life. Having a baby is hard. It's even harder when you are still a child yourself.
So, I just pray Sarah can give that baby her all.
I have made this quilt top for Sarah's baby, Mia. I hope to have it finished in the next week or so for her :-)
I realize the striped block are a little off....... Me and straight lines don't mix well...........

Thank Goodness that's ALMOST over.....

2008-12-28T20:29:00.004-05:00

We, of course, had a very very busy holiday season. Santa was very good to Jadyn as he always is. She got a new bike ( The pink Scwinn roadster). Her other bike bit the dust right before we moved to our new house. The handle bars got stripped somehow. She also got a few games, playdoh Ice Cream shop, some clothes, two babies, the waterproof kid tough camera, a guitar, Leapster, Leapfrog Tag reading pen, princess dress up stuff, Hannah Montanna sleeping bag, a pearl for her add a pearl necklace, coloring books and crayons, a princess tiara, a digital art studio, ton of stocking stuffers, Wall-E and Sleeping Beauty DVD's. I am 100% positive thats not all of it..... That is just what I can think of this very moment. The crazy part is..... It's not over. We still have to go to my father's house to celebrate Christmas with him. We will be going there this weekend.

This is what our tree looked like on Christmas morning....... There are a ton of wrapped presents under the tree that are hard to see...

Happy Holidays

2008-12-25T07:13:00.002-05:00

We hope you have a safe and wonderful Holiday.

One Bonus to Jadyn being at Grandma's

2008-12-19T09:06:00.002-05:00

When I clean a room it stays that way.......... haha!!

Well. Poop

2008-12-19T06:36:00.003-05:00

Lastnight Sue and I took Jadyn to my mothers house so we could Christmas shop for her sometime between this morning and Saturday morning. I don't know how well this is going to go because we are supposed to get 6-12" of snow between now and 10:00 p.m. tonight.
Isn't that Lovely?????
GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!

Jadyn and Santa

2008-12-16T19:45:00.002-05:00

Here are our yearly Santa photos. Do you just LOVE this Santa?? If I had to picture the REAL Santa he would for surely be the one.

Cookies Cookies Cookies

2008-12-11T19:54:00.003-05:00

Jadyn and I are leaving for my parent's house this weekend to do our yearly cookie making! I love this tradition for Jadyn. It is usually just me, my mom and Jadyn. It's great spending the time together with TWO of my most favorite people. :-)

Here's Looking at You Kid

2008-12-07T09:48:00.003-05:00

One of Jadyn's self portraits.....hahaha!!!

Christmas Card 2008

2008-12-06T21:18:00.003-05:00

Here it is woot woot!!!

Surreal

2008-12-04T13:23:00.004-05:00

It still feels surreal that Chippy is gone. I find myself looking for him or wanting to yell for him to clean up something that has been dumped or spilled ( Mostly Jadyn's doings). Tyson ( thou-who-shall-not-touch-inappropriate-food) will only clean up the meaty stuff. The house just doesn't feel right without him. It feels empty. ( Cause god knows three other animals is not enough). It was always Chipper and Ty..... they just go together. Now, it's just Ty. That doesn't sound nearly as ringy.
I miss my boy! I DO NOT miss him being sick though. That was ugly. It was hard watching him wither away to nothing and only eat enough to survive the past 6 months. He was a very sick boy.
We miss you bunches Chipper boy!

So much to do, so little time!

2008-12-04T07:51:00.004-05:00

Am I the only one out there that has still not bought Christmas presents? Can we say PROCRASTINATION?? I am making some of the grandparents gifts ( that I cannot reveal here until after they get them). I am making our one friend an Elvis Presley rag quilt. However, I have not purchased ONE gift yet. I feel like such a slacker. Perhaps maybe I can get myself motivated before Christmas Eve??
I haven't even done Jadyn's photos yet for our Christmas Card. Anybody have their cards out yet? I can't believe Christmas is ONLY 3 weeks away.

Thankful Thursday

2008-12-04T07:42:00.007-05:00

* I am THANKFUL for the 11.5 years I had with my black lab, Chipper

* Peanut Butter Whoopie Pies ( to die for)

* Dishwashers

* Of course, family and friends ( That's an obvious one though, right?)

* Puke buckets ( Oh yes, we had a sick girl this week)

* Sue ( she is my saving grace)

* cute babies, I just love me a cute baby.

* puppies and kittens ( oh, who am I kidding, I LOVE all baby animals)

There are so many things to be Thankful for that I, of course, cannot list them all !

Wordless Wednesday

2008-12-03T09:37:00.007-05:00

Still not easy.....

2008-12-02T10:13:00.005-05:00

Today is still not easy. I really missed my morning greeting from my Bone Head :-( I looked forward to my morning love from my boy! However, today is easier. I don't feel like I am walking around in zombie state today. I slept better last night. I still miss him terribly. I guess if you don't have a pet you probably think it is ridiculous to feel this way toward an animal.

Chipper went through many ups and downs in life with me. He was my rock sometimes. It was just Him and I for the first 3-4 years of his life. He was like my child. My baby. He would sleep with me at night and wrap his paw around me. We would sleep like that all night sometimes. He even used a pillow.....lol If I wanted to take a nap on the couch he ( and his 75 pounds) would crawl up on my back and sleep. I Loved it! He was so warm!!

Most of the time I could take Chipper for walks ( around the yard) without a leash. He would only run after a bike or a loud truck.....lol He would always cower on his way back from the chase because he knew I didn't approve of such behavior. I wouldn't even have to scold him. He would punish himself.....

For the first few years of Chipper's life we lived in the country. He ran free..... was never tied up. I had a certain call I would do and he would for surely be there within a few minutes. He would also go find my other dog for me if she wouldn't come back. I would say " Chip, go find Valentine and tell her to come home." He would disappear for about 5 minutes and come running with Valley Girl in tow. If for some reason he was to far away to hear me yell I would fire up the four wheeler. He ALWAYS heard that.

We then had to live in city's for a while but he had fenced yards to romp around in. Chipper LOVED his basketball. He would nudge it with his head and kick the ball between his legs until he couldn't go any further. He would then turn around and go a different direction. It was his form of soccer. He really loved it when you would try to get the ball from him. He LOVED the challenge. He was a tough boy. He beat me a few times :-) We buried Chipper with his basketball between his front legs.

I always said I wanted to get Chipper back in to the country to live before his final days. We moved back to the country at the beginning of November. Chipper was in all of his glory again!

I could go on and on and on about the fun we had. Or about the little quirks and cute things he did. Chipper was a truly amazing pup. I truly truly truly will miss him!!

Thanks Chip, for loving me too!!

Miserable Monday

2008-12-01T07:32:00.004-05:00

I dub today miserable. I miss my dog so much! Latnight was my first night home without him and it was unbearable. I dreamt of him, I kept waking up to look for him. Although I have so many other pets and people filling my heart, I feel empty. Where did my time go so quickly with Chip? I keep hoping I am just having a bad dream. I don't think the tears have stopped since lastnight. I can't stand it. I know it will get better with time but for now it hurts. I just want him home.

R.I.P My Boy

2008-11-30T22:16:00.004-05:00

Chipper is gone. He passed on Saturday Morning. We buried him today at my mom's house. I don't know what to say. I am sooooooo going to miss him. He was my best friend for 11 years. My companion. My confidant. He always listened. He snuggled me when I was sad and he was happy when I was happy. He was the best dog a person could have ever asked for. I can't believe my time with him is over. It seemed like we were together for a short time but then again it felt like forever. I can't stand the empty feeling I am having. I feel like my right hand is missing. Like a piece of me has been ripped away. I hate it! I hate everything about it. I will miss him so so so very much!!
I Love You Chippy Boy!! Life is going to be rough without you here. Hugs and Smooches my boy!!

It's really it this time.......

2008-11-28T19:59:00.003-05:00

My dog probably won't be with us for much more than a few more days. He has refused to eat anything in the past few days. The last thing he ate was a hamburger from Burger King on Wednesday Night. He will only drink a little bit. He throws up nasty old brown yuck a few times a day. I do believe it is blood that is sitting in his tummy :-( I am really sad but I also don't really want to watch him be sick for much longer. He has been ill for quite some time and it is time for it to end. We are not putting him to sleep.... we are just going to let nature take its course. He is comfortable and is sleeping in my bed 99% of the time. We have him covered with baby blankets. Jadyn and I are at my mom's house for the weekend. He should have a pretty peaceful weekend at home with his other mommy.
I sure will miss him!!!

Happy Turkey Day!!

2008-11-27T09:30:00.004-05:00

Happy Thanksgiving from My family to all of yours! I hope you have a spledid day. We are off to Aunt Lisa's later today to fill our bellies so high we may not be able to move for a day or two!!!
Tomorrow Jadyn and I are off to Grandma's (my mom's) house for the weekend. My mom and I might brave taking Jadyn to see Madagascar 2. The first Madagascar is her absolute most favorite movie in the world. On Saturday Jadyn and I are going to venture over to my Dad's house to visit and then on Sunday Sue will join us at my mom's house and we will celebrate Turkey Day at her house. Who could ask for anything more??? TWO Thanksgivings in one week!!!

J's Quilt Top is finished.....

2008-11-25T20:45:00.004-05:00

I finished putting the borders on J's Quilt Top this eveing. It is ALL Done!! Now comes the Scarey scarey part of quilting it. I am so afraid to mess it up from here...... UGH!!

There is nothing like......

2008-11-25T13:56:00.002-05:00

Scrubbing your rug on your hands and knees with soap and bleach BECAUSE...... your child and dog decided to play spaghetti and applesauce toss all over the living room!! There is also a nice spot of spaghetti sauce on my ceiling!!

My first TWO finished quilt Tops.....

2008-11-21T20:21:00.005-05:00

This is the first one I attempted. These are just the Quilt tops. I haven't actually "Quilted" them yet! That is the scarey part........ This one has some screw ups in it but it turned out kinda cute.
This Quilt is going to be for the Sister (Jadyn). I used all 1930's Reproduction fabrics. It actually turned out better then I thought it would. I need to border it with something. ( Any suggestions on color? Would white make it to blah?) Decisions Decisions.........

Achoo

2008-11-20T16:56:00.002-05:00

Jadyn's illness has turned in to a cold. I, of course, will take that over the puking any day. She does get the post nasal drip when she is trying to sleep which wakes her up and she wakes everybody else up. If any body has a post nasal drip stopper upper tip please share with us!! I LIKE sleeping at night and do not want to be woke up every hour for the next 5 days.
I have finished piecing my first quilt top. There are a few screw ups but it didn't turn out half bad really. I am now working on Jadyn's. I am making Jadyn a lap size quilt which measures 57"x75". Who the hell has a lap that big????...... I got some 1930's reproduction fabric for her quilt. I hope it turns out as cute as I want it to.

Wordless Wednesday

2008-11-19T08:22:00.003-05:00

So Far, So Good

2008-11-17T10:43:00.004-05:00

Sister woke up at 8:30 this morning asking me for chocolate milk and toast. It is now 10:30 and everything is still down :-) About an hour later she ate about a handful of Goldfish crackers. She must of just been having a yucky day yesterday. I guess we all have to do that every now and then. I am thinking I will still try to avoid anything harsh on the belly today.

My Poor Little Chicklet

2008-11-16T20:28:00.003-05:00

This morning we knew Jadyn wasn't feeling well. She just didn't seem herself. She wanted to lay around and watch T.V. all morning. Then she was laying around all afternoon watching movies. She didn't eat anthing this morning and she wouldn't try eating lunch either. She ate a few yogurt covered raisins and that was it. Sue took her temp and it was about 99.7. Well, yeah, it's a fever but not much of one.
Later on Sue took Jadyn's temp again and it was about 100. Jadyn was laying on the couch watching Blue's Clues. I had been trying and trying to get her to take some Tylenol. She wouldn't drink or eat anything. All of the sudden she sat up and started screaming. I thought someone bit her toe off. Then she yells "Moma I am gonna puke." Sure enough all over her Blankie, Taggie and Paci. We got her all cleaned up. I don't even know how she knew she was gonna puke because she has NEVER ben sick. We finally got her to take some Tylenol and about 30 minutes later that came up. Of course, we don't dare to give her more because who knows how much of it she got. If she isn't feeling better or drinking and eating by tomorrow she will be having her first "Sick baby" visit. When she talks she sounds like her throat is sore although she claims it isn't. I hope she has a quick recovery over night and I don't wake up to being puked on..........

She said What???? (Insert Jaw drop here)

2008-11-15T15:54:00.004-05:00

First let me start by saying I am really not a potty mouth. I say the usual damn or hell but I don't really curse much. Unless needed.....lol

So today we go to Wal-mart. On our way through the parking lot we are walking down our row and cross over. A kid comes flying by us on out LEFT sides going up the wrong side of the row. My child was about 4 inches from getting hit in the head by his bumper. I tried to ram my cart into his car but he went to quickly. I then tried to find a rock to throw at his window but couldn't find one. YES I act out of anger and I was PISSED off. Ya know, if it was just Sue and I, I wouldn't have been nearly as livid as I was. BUT NOW your messin' with the offspring. Not a good idea. This kid and his buddy were then sitting in a restaurant paking lot beside Wal-mart. I was trying to hurry up and get Jadyn in the car because I WAS going over there to give him a piece of my mind and perhaps throw a few punches at his head. So, just as I am headed that direction He and his buddy take off. Then I know that there is no chance I will get to scream in his general direction. I then decide I am going to rant and rave and be pissed off and bitch until I feel better. ( Sue is so good at listening to me be pissed....lol) Well, little miss twinkle toes must have had her ears open very wide listening to me gripe. She then yells " I AM SO MAD, I AM GOING TO GO FUCK HIM IN THE BUTT!"

Boy, where did that sentence go wrong?.....lmao I giggle every time I rethink about this afternoon. My kid was trying to be so helpful but at no point in time did I claim I was going to fuck him in the butt.....lmao

OH, how a three year old can get their words twisted.........lol

Hobbies

2008-11-12T10:44:00.003-05:00

So, I am in the process of trying to teach myself a new hobby........

Quilting....... not just rag quilts..... the real deal........

Why? I have no idea. Like as if I don't have enough to do already......

I guess we will see how this goes........haha!!

Something else to spend a fortune on. Am I never happy??......

Been MIA

2008-11-07T18:22:00.002-05:00

We have been so busy with the move. When we weren't moving I was/am busy with photo sessions. I was also avoiding the internet because I had to use dial up until today. Dial up and the things I like to do online do NOT mix :-) I have some photos and stuff to post when I get a chance......

Say NO to violence

2008-10-23T20:48:00.003-04:00

Scroll to the bottom of my page to sign my widget :-)

I need more friends........

2008-10-21T10:29:00.003-04:00

It seems like when I am trying to move I never have friends....lol Is it just me or does everybody else have this problem? Over the weekend we got a lot of the big things moved. My Mom and Dad came up with my dad's trailer and helped us get the stuff out that we can't get out with our vehicle. We still have a ton of stuff that needs to get out though!
We have been sleeping on the fold out sofa mattress on the floor. My back gets less and less functional as the days go by sleeping on that thing. I was ALMOST certain that I probably wouldn't stand up when I woke up this morning. I somehow managed. It's 10:30 and my back is still killing me. Of course, I never really did get sore backs until I hurt my back after Jadyn was born. Now I get severe pain in that area. Especially when I do dumb things like sleep on a hard mattress/floor.
There is a "stray" kitty, Alley, that lives in the garage at our new house. She has 6 little baby kitties and they are adorable. I will have to take some photos and post them. They are about 3 weeks old and just starting to eat solid foods. Jadyn and I go feed them every day. Sometimes twice a day. Once we are living there full time I am sure we will be checking on them hundreds of times a day. Jadyn won't have it any other way! She is IN LOVE. I am certain she will be very sad when it is time to find the babies a new home. It's a must though. There is NO WAY I am keeping 6 cats. I already have 2 of my own and now Alley my outside cat.
I can't wait until we are done moving. I really do HATE it!!!

Imponderables

2008-10-17T09:51:00.003-04:00

If 4 out of 5 people SUFFER from diarrhea....does that mean that one out offive enjoys it? *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Why do croutons come in airtight packages? Aren't they just stale bread tobegin with? *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ *~*~* *~*~*~*~*~*~*~
If people from Poland are called Poles, then why aren't people from Hollandcalled Holes? *~*~*~*~*~*~*~ *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
If it's true that we are here to help others, then what exactly are theothers here for? *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP? ?
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What hair color do they put on the driver's licenses of bald men?
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I thought about how mothers feed their babies with tiny little spoons andforks, so I wondered what do Chinese mothers use. Toothpicks?
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Why do they put pictures of criminals up in the Post Office? What are wesupposed to do, write to them? Why don't they just put their pictures on thepostage stamps so the mailmen can look for them while they deliver the mail?
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Is it true that you never really learn to swear until you learn to drive?
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As income tax time approaches, did you ever notice: When you put the twowords 'The' and 'IRS' together, it spells 'THEIRS'?
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Ellen Degeneres

2008-10-16T12:01:00.005-04:00

Ya know, there isn't many stand up comedians that make me laugh. As a matter of fact I usually find most of them dumb and annoying. Ellen can make me LAUGH! I think it is because most of what she speaks of is reality.......

Dumb Question of the day

2008-10-16T10:54:00.003-04:00

Ok, so I have had a computer for years and years and years but there is one thing I still do not know how to do. How can I make it so when you click on a word it takes you to a link? Like if I say "Click HERE" it will take you to where I want you to go. Or type "Jadyn" and it will take you to her blog? Please, share the secret.....lol

The many faces of Me and Sue ( mostly me)

2008-10-15T14:05:00.005-04:00

These are the kinds of things that happen when you let your 3 year old have the camera and she sets up a photo shoot.....lol She was instructing me what to do.........

Apple Orchard

2008-10-15T13:29:00.003-04:00

On Sunday I had a photo session I had to do in Rochester. I have done this family's photos for 3 years in a row now. They wanted their photos done at a local apple orchard called Hurd Orchards. They are a "Pick your own" orchard. When we went on Sunday they had about 10 different varities of apples you could pick, plums and raspberries. When we first got to the orchard we went over to the apples. There were TONS! So we picked ouselves a 1/2 bushel. We then went to the plums. The plums were about done for the season. They were quite soft and very very sweet! Mmmmmmmm!! Then on to the raspberries. Jadyn ate them faster then she could put them in her bucket. Ya know, the funny thing is, if I buy Jadyn berries at a grocery store she won't touch them but if she picks them herself she will gobble them right up! She gets it from her Moma :-)
They had a little country store there where you could buy already picked apples, berries, plums, etc etc. They also had homemade baked goods. Dried flowers hanging from the ceiling. There was homemade applesauce, jellies and jams. Your mouth would water just walking in. Attached to the store was a "barn" with tables and chairs where you could get hot or cold apple cider, hot apple pie with cinnamon ice cream, fresh warm apple butter with warm bread or a homemade chicken pot pie. I, of course, just had to have apple pie with cinnamon icecream on top. It was SCUMPTIOUS!! I can't wait to go back next year :-)

Jadyn picking an apple:

Eating her raspberries before they reach the bucket:
Moma and Jadyn searching for the plumpest juiciest raspberries:
On and old old tractor:
Chillin':
Waiting patiently for her pie:

A rose just outside of the store:

You want to know what kills me??

2008-10-13T19:59:00.003-04:00

Every time I log on to my daughter's donor group and someone else is pregnant again! Or even trying again. However, everybody that has tried has become successful BUT me. It makes my heart split in two. I HATE IT! I hate everything about it. I can feel my heart ripping in half. Why them? Why are they able to do it? What is wrong with Sue and I?

When we went to the psychic she also said I will never physically carry my own child again. She saw an Asian adoption in my future. I don't want to adopt a freakin' Asian kid. I WANT MY OWN!! For fucking crying out loud! How the hell did I get Jadyn so easy? This shit is for the god damn birds! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Psychics

2008-10-12T08:09:00.004-04:00

Yesterday our friend, Lisa, had a psychic party at her house. The lady's name was Terrot by Terry. She was a pretty nice lady. Now, I know some people believe they are evil or a waste of money or whatever it is you want to think they are. I do it for pure entertainment purposes. I think it is very entertaining and interesting. She almost right away asked me who "Ricky" or "Richard" is. Richie is a friend of mine who passed when we were teengers. He was 16 and I was 17 when he was taken from the world. We were like brother and sister. Our houses were pretty much in each others backyards. One day after a high school dance Richie went sled riding with a bunch of friends. They were actually sled riding down a road ( which is a very normal thing where we grew up). A toboggan had went down the hill first. Rich and his friend then went down on a saucer sled. Little did they know the toboggan had wrecked. Richie and his buddy hit the sled full force. That was it....... It ruptured Richie's aorta. The end. Just like that he was gone :-( It was a very very very hard time in my life. I had a very hard time with it. I couldn't believe my "brother" was gone. I am still in disbelief sometimes and that was about 15 years ago.

Terry then asked me about my grandpa that just passed. She also knew that Sue and I are relocating. She also pointed out the main road we ae going to be near when we move. So, the question is "Did Terry WOW me?" No, not really. " Do I believe in psychics?" I don't know. " Did I have fun with it?" I did!! I would do it again too!!!!!

Am I getting ANYWHERE???

2008-10-09T14:53:00.003-04:00

Today I cleaned out my bedroom. There are still some minor things to do in there but not a whole lot. It seems like the more I do the messier everything gets. Perhaps that is because it really is? I do tend to migrate things to other rooms. Also, my little tornado takes advantage of me being busy and she turns into an F5. I also started Jadyn's play room a few days ago. The give away pile is MUCH bigger than he keep pile....lol I am going to donate all of her stuffed animals we are not keeping to the SPCA. I am also going to give them any old baby blankets or towels I find. I am now looking for a place I can donate used toys. I don't want to do the Salvation Army or Goodwill because they turn around and sell them. I want them GIVEN to needy children. Besides, I avoid Salvation Army at all costs. They are not supportive of Gays.
Then, there is Jadyn's books......oof........ that will take ten years...........

I'm tired

2008-10-05T20:31:00.004-04:00

I am already tired and we haven't even started moving yet. Just the thought of it makes me want to lay down and bang my head on the floor. I HATE moving! Hate it Hate it! I would rather scrub bathroom floors all day long on my hands and knees. I would probably rather cut one of my own fingers off.
I have started going through Jadyn's clothes and sorting out what I absolutely want to keep. Why I even want to keep anything is beyond me. I want to keep all of her first holiday outfits. Plus, there are just some damn cute outfits I LOVED of hers that I just can't see giving away. I am selling a load of her gymboree stuff on ebay. My username is sugarcreekquiltsandcrafts. I am only listing winter stuff right now. I will probably start listing her summer stuff from the past 2 years arounf February. I also have LOTS of Old navy, childrens place, gap etc etc that I am selling on ebay. I still have to take photos of that stuff.
We still have until the end of the month to get out of this apartment but I just don't know where to start. It's crazy!

Moving, Moving, Moving........

2008-10-04T07:15:00.003-04:00

That's what I said. Yes. We are moving. We found a 2 bedroom house for rent out in the country. Well, I don't know if it is country country, but we will be on a few acres of land :-) There are some houses behind us but the guy right behind us has a huge fence up so, we won't see each other anyway...... YAAAYYYYYY!!
I am a little nervous though because we have already established life where we are. We have been here almost 6 years. The house we are moving to is smaller than our apartment but it is much nicer and have I mentioned all of the LAND??? My dogs will have room to play and my kid will have room to play. So, what is better? A small house with a HUGE yard that is all ours? Where my kid can have outside toys all over and nobody will care. Or a larger apartment where my kid barely gets to go outside to play? I'm going for the house!! So, here we go to downsizing. That's not goig to be a simple task....lol Jadyn has enough toys to fill our new little house. I think some of them may discover outdoor living....haha!!

Buh-Bye Follistim and Menopur

2008-10-02T14:48:00.003-04:00

I just got rid of my fertility drugs that I had left over. Am I done?? Probably! I am very sad but I cannot keep putting all of my time, energy and money in to this. Am I at peace with my decision? NO! This isn't what I want to do but I have to. I want to keep trying again and again and again. I, however, am not the richest person in the world. We may adopt, we may try some more IUI's without medication. I don't know what the future holds. I do know my immediate future has other things to do right now.

Happy Hump Day

2008-10-01T14:49:00.003-04:00

Why is it I feel like I have done nothing over the past week but I still have no time to do anything? I guess I will never know.........

So, I have been reading a book called Conversations with God. Quite interesting I might say. From what I see this IS the God I want to know. He says there is no "wrong or right" way to live. He didn't create us to send us to hell. It is a very deep book. I wouldn't recommend reading it while you are sleepy. It just seems more confusing that way......lol

Over the past weekend we went to my mom's house for the day on Sunday. Every year there is an apple festival. They have a long line of tents full of crafts people are selling. Of course, you want to stop and buy everything you see. At the end of the crafts they have a big open area. There you can buy fresh pies, cider, bags of apples, candy apples, homemade goods and anything else made out of apples. There is also a civil war reenactment. There is a guy that stands at a table with bloody amputated limbs. Every year I am intrigued to go to the table to see the limbs.....lol I don't know why, it's not like they are real.....lol

Jadyn ended up getting a bag of cotton candy, a toy that has flaps and when you push it the little flaps make a smacking sound on the ground and a water balloon yoyo. She also had her face painted like a pink and purple butterfly. Between 4 of us we split nachos and a Bloomin' Onion. We still couldn't finish all of it. It was a great day!!

Trail mix

2008-09-25T14:00:00.003-04:00

I have come up with my own little idea for trail mix.
My ingredients:
Mini Teddy Graham's (honey)
baby goldfish ( of course not REAL goldfish, the cracker kind ;-)
cheerios
mini jet puff marshmallows

I do believe a few choclate chips in here would be pretty yummy too.

I don't really know what possessed me to mix these things together. I was in the snack cupboard trying to figure out what I wanted to give Jadyn for a snack and I started pulling things out and mixing........... I do have to say I think I LOVE it way more than Jadyn does. She tries to thief all of my marshmallows out of it.

A little of this and a little of that

2008-09-24T12:37:00.006-04:00

Dare I say it??

I believe my dog is starting to get better!! I have noticed that he is gaining weight again!! His face and belly don't look as skinny to me. He is starting to look normal again. Better than he has in a few months! Now, I do still have him on antibiotics. I am half afraid for when he isn't taking them anymore. I have a big fear that he is going to get sick again :-( I would rather just keep him on antibiotics the rest of his life........lol

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On another note, something rather bizarre happened today. Wait, let's just do a flashback to a few years ago first. I started my photography business about 3 years ago. Soon after my site went live I got a harassing email or two from another photographer in this area saying she was going to sue me and she said "You would think you would want something better for yourself seeing as though there is ALREADY a natural light photographer in the area". Well, honey, I hate to break the news but there more than just ONE other. I also heard through the grapevine that she would have felt differently if I would have asked her to mentor me. I like to figure things out on my own. I don't like to be a follower. I don't like being a leader either. I just like to be. Be me. Be myself. I like to do my own thing. Even if that means many trials and errors.
Anyway, whatever, life went on.
So, that brings me to this morning. I have this email in my inbox:

I am interested in some photos for my 6 year old daughter. I enjoy the fall in our area and was hoping you might be able to do some outdoor pictures of her when the leaves start to change. I loved the outdoor ones in your site. Could you also please suggest a few places for the session, especially the places on your website.

Thank you!

Lynn

That is fine. I mean that's a normal thing.....right? The first flag "Especially the locations on your website." Okay well, that's getting a little specific, yes? So then I am looking at the email and WALLLLLLAAAA the from address is soandso@whatever.com BUT right beside the email is the name. It was her!! It was the other photographers name starring at me right in the face........ Emailing me from some made up email account to try to get information from me.

Ya know, if she was looking for new locations all she had to do was ask. Seriously, How old are we? I have NO problems being social with said photographer. NONE! Hell, I have even considered hiring her to do my own family photos. Just because Bubba pumps gas at one gas station doesn't mean he can't be friends or social to Jimmy who pumps gas up the street. There is always competition. No matter what you do. That doesn't mean you have to cheat, steal and lie from your competitors.

OY!!!

My Old man......

2008-09-21T12:08:00.004-04:00

My Bone Head is feeling a lot better lately. Of course, he is still skinny and sickly looking. He will only eat people food. Even a lot of that he won't eat. He really is LOVING hot dogs and scrambled eggs lately. This morning I even made him a hot dog omelet ( yuck). I think he thought he went to heaven. Tonight he ate some noodles with Chili juice over the noodles. He seemed to really like that, so I saved him the left over noodles and we have a WHOLE pot of Chili! I am still giving Chip antibiotics. His urine isn't as strong smelling but he did pee on my floor this afternoon. That is very very very unlike him so I know something funny is still going on in there. I hope whatever is wrong will soon go away with the antibiotics. I really believe he has a wicked urinary tract infection or a bladder infection.
In the mean time my other dog is eating way more than he should because Chipper only eats a little bit at a time. So, he is getting to be a chunker boy. I can't win.......lol
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We have been having a great weekend. Yesterday we took Jadyn to the playground for a little bit. We then went to Walmart and Jadyn got to buy her most favorite movie "Camp Rock". She was so excited. She also got a new pair of sneakers. She is now wearing a size 10!!! I think her donor may have been Big Foot. After that we went to Tops and Jadyn and I picked all of the stuff out to make chocolate chip cookies. So, when we got home Jadyn and I made yummy cookies together :-)
Today we have pretty much just hung out at home but it has been very eventful. This morning we went through all of Sue's clothes and she is giving a ton of them to our nephew Kyle. She has a ton of men's jeans and shirts she can't wear any more. He is going to make out like a little bandit. I, then, went through some of Jadyn's clothes. I am trying to find all of her old Gymboree outfits to list on ebay( I have a ton of 12-18 18-24 and 2T's if anybody is interested). I have to get them all washed and unwrinkled and the picture taking for ebay will begin.
Then, I started a crock pot of Chili for dinner. We then went through and packed up all of our CD's because our case is falling apart. Maybe just maybe one day my house will be in order?!?!?!

It's always something.....

2008-09-18T15:48:00.008-04:00

This morning I got up early to edit photos. Usually when I come upstairs Sue is sitting on the couch drinking her coffee and watching the morning news. Well, nothing was different this morning. I didn't think anyways. I sit down to watch the news with her and the t.v is blank. The sound is coming out just fine. There is just no picture! Well, isn't this lovely?? Now, on top of everything else, we need a new TV. I need to be rich....... Seriously!!

Chipper is still doing well. I made him and Tyson some eggs, cinnamon toast and hot dogs for breakfast. Why is it I feel the need to make a dog breakfast food?? Do you think he really knows the difference between morning, noon and night??

Miraculos Recovery???

2008-09-18T15:48:00.004-04:00

Ok, So I wouldn't exactly say a miraculous recovery but my dog is eating and drinking again. He is also able to go outside and go up and down the stairs. I thought for sure he was a goner. He has been sickly for a few months. He has lost a ton of weight and is pretty much skin and bones. Although he is not eating dog food, he will gladly let you make him a plate of people food.....lol
I have no idea what is going on with this dog. That will now raise the question " Why haven't you taken him to the vet?"
Well, here is my reasoning. Why am I going to pay hundreds, maybe even thousands to a vet for them to tell me he is sick? I have had him on antibiotics and I have dewormed him. He is actually on antibiotics for the 3rd time in a few months right now. I am not going to pay for x-rays for them to say "Oh, he has cancer." Obviously if it isn't an infection or a parasite of some sort then it is a terminal illness. What do you do with a dog that is eleven years old? Take him to the vet and spends hundreds or thousands of dollars for them to say there is nothing they can do?? He is happy and well-loved. He is just a skinny boy right now :-) He may never get better.... I don't know. Regardless, I will do what I can to make him comfy and happy. Even if that means giving him people food every day......lol

He's Dieing :-(

2008-09-15T19:51:00.004-04:00

My buddy, my pal, my baby......... My dog Chipper has started to refuse food and water. He has been sick for a little while but while I was away this weekend he really decided to give up. We can get him to drink every now and then but he throws it back up after a little while. He is losing control of himself and lays in it. Of course we clean him up and lay him back down on clean blankets/towels. We have him sleeping on Jadyn's little couch with a garbage bag covering the couch and then some towels down. We also have him covered up with a baby blanket. If he isn't covered up he gets real cold and stiff.

I can't believe my life with him is about over. He was my first baby. He was my first dog. The first dog that was all mine. Not a childhood family dog. He has been an excellent friend. He is probably the only one that knows my most deepest secrets. He has been here through the good times and the bad. He has never given up on me and has always been my most best friend. He is one of the most loyal friends in the whole world. Chipper was my will to survive when times were hard. He would get happy and excited when I was happy. When I was sad he would come lay his head in my lap and be my shoulder to lean on. He is a very intelligent and funny boy. He is also the only Lab I know that doesn't know how to swim....lol I dont know how many times I had to save him.

Chipper my boy..... I am sure going to miss your companionship! I Love You my Bone Head :-(

Dear Tyson, Jadyn and Chipper

2008-09-12T09:35:00.003-04:00

Dear Tyson,

PLEASE be careful when you are playing with Jadyn. Her skin is sensitive and she is smaller than you. Do not SCRATCH her when you want her to play. You running around like an idiot barking at her is clue enough. I am tired of you putting scratch marks on her face, legs, belly and arms. I feel the need to crush your skull when you hurt her. Please do not pee on Jadyn's car and bike that are in the kitchen. It doesn't make it work any better. STOP beating up on Chipper. He is an old man and he need not have you stupid self bothering him! Save me from insanity and stop the bullshit!!

Dear Chipper,

Refusing to eat your food will NOT get you people food. Stop being a block head! Also, please stand up for yourself every now and then. Your bigger than you think you are. Besides, you have more tetth than Tyson. Rip his ear off or something.

Dear Jadyn,

Please honey STOP screaming at the top of your lungs at 7:30 a.m. It's not a pleasant sound. I know you get excited but THAT is aggrivating! Please do not say "Mommy" every 5 seconds. It makes me want to tape your mouth shut. Stop asking me where your things are when you are the one that just had it and misplaced it. OPEN your eyes because 99% of the time the thing you are looking for is right beside you. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE start using the potty. Changing the diaper of a 3 year old is ridiculous. Especially when I know you are capable of using the potty for you have used it a full day before.

Signed,
The Mommy

I NEED A VACATION!!!

This coming weekend......

2008-09-11T10:40:00.005-04:00

We are going to see my brother in Pittsburgh. He is at Laurel Highlands prison. He made some very wrong choices in life while on a alcohol and drug filled period in his life. I hope and pray he is in there deciding to turn his life around. Last year he was in a car accident and went through the windshield he got to take a helicopter ride from the scene. He walked away with just a broken foot and a concussion. That's pretty good for what could have happened. A few days later he slit his wrists pretty deeply. I personally believe and have heard of other stories of people attempting suicide after concussions. Well, if that wasn't enough a while later he decided to steal 4 vehicles in our small hometown. He, of course, got caught. Now he is serving some time. I think he is supposed to get out in March/April of 2009. I am hoping with a new attitude and outlook on life. I hope he gets the help he needs. So, my mom, my nephew ( his son), Jadyn and I are all going to go to Pittsburgh for a night. He can only have visitors until 3:30 p.m. each day so hopefully we can find something fun to do! Like maybe shop???.....lol I also reserved us a room at a hotel with an indoor heated pool! Jadyn and Kyle will LOVE it. Who would have thought going to see someone in prison would be so fun???.......

OBGYN

2008-09-08T06:43:00.002-04:00

On Friday I had my lovely yearly........Blech...... I spoke with my OB about things that have been happening with the RE. A second opinion is never a bad thing I suppose. I told her about my IVF and the outcome. She told me that she believes I have egg quality issues. So, maybe it is time to stop......I believe it is egg issues too.... I mean, what else could the problem be? I had 8 fertilized eggs and only ONE went to a 6 cell. That is "normal" but it isn't great. 32 years old with egg quality issues..... Great........

Family Weekend......

2008-09-07T21:53:00.003-04:00

This weekend probably couldn't have been much better. The beaches have closed for the year now and that begins "our" season of lake glass hunting. We will probably go to the beach every weekend from now until it is to darn cold to go. We walk the shore line from one end to the next looking for lake glass. We mostly find clear and green..... with brown being next in line. We always have a race to see who can find the oh so rare dark blue piece of glass. Whoever finds it first is the winner. The winner gets to pick what we have for dinner that night. Sue is usally the winner of this game. I think she cheats......lol We did our lake glass hunt on Saturday. When we were finished we let Jadyn play at the beach play ground. We were at the beach for a total of 3.5 hours.
Sunday ( today) we pretty much just hung out at home. We did let Jadyn stop at the play ground and play in the rain for a little while before we went to the store. We all took a nap together. When we got up we lounged, made spaghetti, and then lounged more. Jadyn and Moma are sitting on the floor reading a book right now. I am, of course, typing right this minute and instructing Jadyn that she NEEDS to go brush her teeth...... She is ignoring me........

Collage of me and my little love :-)

2008-09-05T08:29:00.002-04:00

Labor Day Fun

2008-09-01T18:17:00.003-04:00

Today we spent time at the Tifft Nature Preserve. We had a great time :-) I took several pictures of sister in her petti skirt by the water. But, I got some very special photos today and that is ones of just me and Jadyn. I don't have many pictures of Jadyn and I. So I really LOVE these photos even though Jadyn is being silly in the one....lol

Jadyn and Mommy:

Jadyn and Mommy:

My Sexy self.....haha!!!

Sue

IVF#1 Failure

2008-08-24T07:24:00.000-04:00

I started bleeding......... I have nothing more to say!

Questions for those of you that have had 2 pregnancies

2008-08-21T09:26:00.004-04:00

When I first found out I was pregnant with Jadyn I had all of the typical AF signs. I was cramping, breast tenderness, freezing to death and starving. Well,, the starving thing wasnt typical but I soon figured out why I was so hungry....lol So anyway, I had a c-section with Jadyn. Since then I experience no cramping or breast tenderness around that time of the month. The most I ever get is a small back ache. So the question is....... Did any of you out there have cramping in your first pregnancy but not the others? I sit around waiting for the same symptoms and I'm not even sure if they would happen.....lol

I mean personally and in all honesty I don't think my IVF worked. I didn't exactly have the best embryo's put back in. I could get the shock of a lifetime though I suppose.....

Child Leashes/restraints

2008-08-20T08:51:00.005-04:00

Why am I talking about Child Leashes? Well because this is my blog and I want to. I LOVE child leashes. I NEVER have had to use one on Sister because she is actually very very very well behaved in crowds. She is good about staying with us, holding our hands or sitting in a stroller. She actually would rather ride in her stroller than anything. I think child leashes are EXCELLENT especially for in crowds. It also gives your child some freedom and exercise. However, yesterday I saw a woman walking her child with a leash on which isn't bad BUT I was irritated. It wasn't a busy area at all and the kid was about THREE! Your child will never learn to behave if you put the leash on them every time you go outside. She has to learn discipline at some point. She is not learning a damn thing being leashed in a non busy area!!! Now that I call pure laziness.

Why is it that...............

2008-08-19T09:20:00.004-04:00

People who deserve kids have a hell of a time getting them, if they can at all, and the ones that abort, abuse, shake, neglect, starve and kill their children have no troubles at all breeding. And they say there is a god......... pffftttt!!!! The more I see the less I believe.

11 DPO or 8dp3dt

2008-08-18T13:33:00.000-04:00

HPT= NEGATIVE

The remaining embryo's.......

2008-08-14T09:09:00.003-04:00

Didn't make it to freeze. I knew that was going to happen but I was just hoping that just maybe a small miracle might happen so I wouldn't have to do retrieval again if I ever want more. However, I do know if this takes this time around we are DONE! I just can't do this fertility crap anymore. I'm not even sure yet what we are going to do if this IVF round doesn't take. I don't have any more insurance $$$ to cover another round. Maybe we will just be happy with what we have already :-) Sometimes I do wonder if I am crazy for wanting to do the infant stage again....lol I guess time will tell..................................

"Buddy G, My Two Moms and Me."

2008-08-13T11:33:00.004-04:00

Buddy G, My Two Moms and Me is about a little boy who is being raised by two mommies. I think it is absolutely wonderful that someone made a cartoon about a child having 2 mom's!!

Prepare now for the Beijing Olympics.

2008-08-12T18:16:00.003-04:00

Learn Chinese in 5 minutes (You MUST read them aloud)
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English: That's not right! Chinese: Sum Ting Wong

English: Are you harboring a fugitive? Chinese: Hu Yu Hai Ding

English: See me ASAP Chinese: Kum Hia Nao

English: Stupid Man Chinese: Dum Fuk

English: Small Horse Chinese: Tai Ni Po Ni

English: Did you go to the beach? Chinese: Wai Yu So Tan

English: I bumped into a coffee table! Chinese: Ai Bang Mai Fu Kin Ni

English: I think you need a face lift! Chinese: Chin Tu Fat

English: It's very dark in here! Chinese: Wai So Dim

English: I thought you were on a diet! Chinese: Wai Yu Mun Ching

English: This is a tow away zone! Chinese: No Pah King

English: Our meeting is scheduled for next week! Chinese: Wai Yu Kum Nao

English: Staying out of sight Chinese: Lei Ying Lo

English: He's cleaning his automobile Chinese: Wa Shing Ka

English: Your body odour is offensive Chinese: Yu Stin Ki Pu

English: Great Chinese: Fa Kin Su Pa

Disclaimer: I am in no way making fun of the Chinese population. I just thought these were cute!!

FINALLY

2008-08-12T07:48:00.003-04:00

My guts feel like they are going back to normal. I can actually walk around with little to no pain. Who would of thought one little needle in the ovaries would make you hurt so much?? Perhaps now that I am not in so much discomfort my body can think about implanting an embryo or 2???..... :-) What if all 3 implant?? OMG..... I will definately be looking for volunteers...haha!! My RE did tell me if it resulted in triplets he would babysit..... Maybe he shouldn't be so sure of himself.....lol
I didn't get a report yesterday on my remaining embryo's. They must still be kicking it up. Let's hope they hit a growth spurt and want to be frozen :-) Wishful thinking, I know! We all have to dream at some point in our lives :-)

Not to hopeful

2008-08-10T13:58:00.002-04:00

I went in for my Embryo Transfer. The best they had were a 6 cell and 2 4 cells. We transfered all 3 of those and 4 are still in the lab being watched. They don't expect them to make it to the freezer :-( They would like the embryo's to be a 6-8 cell for a 3dt. So we transfered atleast one Okay one. I don't have much hope though. I just want to be the lucky one for once......

Still sore.....

2008-08-09T07:48:00.004-04:00

I am still a little sore today. It is MUCH better than Thursday and Friday though. I can actually walk ALMOST normal now. I don't look like a grandma walking around....lol My poor ovaries were traumatized....lol Tomorrow ia transfer!! I can't wait to hear how well or unwell my embryo's are! Hopefully I am almost pain free by tomorrow for transfer :-)

Fertilization Report

2008-08-08T11:49:00.003-04:00

I have SEXTUPLETS!!!.........lol Out of the 19 retrieved, 8 of them were mature and 6fertilized. Now, let's just hope and pray and hope and pray that they make it until Sunday!! My Transfer is at 10:00. I wonder how many are boys or girls??....lol Perhaps maybe we will even be lucky enough to put two in freeze??? Please please please.