OMG MY guts HURT!!!!

So, I haven't been updating the fertility because well, I guess I just haven't wanted to talk about it. When it's the same ol same ol. It just gets tiring. This time we MIGHT actually get some where. Don't hold your breath though, you will probably pass out. I have about 30-40 follicles in there. I had a DR. appt. this morning and he said we are probably going to be doing Retrieval on Thursday! I am nervous. I just don't want it to hurt.... Apparently I am sedated or asleep ( depends on which doctor or nurse you ask). So, Hopefully that means pain free retrieval. Then he said they will do the transfer on Saturday. This best work because I am not doing it again. I am tired! I am tired of disappointment. I am tired of stabbing myself 3-4 times a day. I am tired of having blood draws. I am tired of U/S. I am tired of getting up early. Plus there are several other things I am tired of. Of course, it will/ would be much worth it if I would ever get some results!!