I keep have reoccurring dreams that I am either pregnant, breastfeeding or have a newborn baby. I have them ALL. THE. TIME. I wake up feeling all happy and fuzzy! Then reality hits. I don't have another. Don't get me wrong. I am so happy I have Jadyn. I am very very very thankful for her.
I NEED another one. I can't give up yet. I am not even at the age where I need to stop yet. I still have 10 years easily to keep trying. Maybe it is time to start trying again? I do KNOW I will not do injections or Invitro again. To expensive and time consuming. Not to mention STRESSFUL!
I am probably crazy to even consider trying again. What if I am wasting my time and money AGAIN? Do I really need the disappointment over and over and over again....again?? Was the psychic right that I would never physically carry my own child again? What if she was right? What if psychics are real? Time can change your future, right? Just because your future is headed one direction at any given time doesn't mean it can't change........right? right??
I must be stupid!