Hockey Addict

I think my small child is OCD about hockey......lol This morning I wake up to "Go Go Bubbawo". I take her to a hockey game ONE time and she is addicted........ Oh well, atleast she fits in with Mommy and Moma. She also runs around yelling "Bubbawo scored!!!". Even when hockey isn't on the t.v.

Everything here is going well. We are thinking we will TTC again after the holidays. Life is just to hectic right now. I have been doing a TON of photo sessions and I just don't have the time right now. We have a new donor selected. Let's just hope he is still available then...... Of course, it would probably be smart to buy it now????.........

Nothing real exciting going on right now.

RE results

Well, he is as dumbfounded as we are. He said as soon as I walked in " I am shocked we are even having this meeting. You respond AWESOME to Follistim. You, yourself, could be an egg donor. I don't know what is wrong unless maybe it is the sperm." I really didn't want to hear that he had no idea what went wrong....... *sigh*

So, now we have choices. We can switch donors ( which I have to do anyway because I am out of the same donor as Jadyn). We can try another IUI. OR we can go to IVF. My RE says if IVF is paid for to go for it. I have a 50% chance at that point. He said he guarantee anything but he is pretty sure things would definately work. Now, Ok cool. I know my IVF is probably paid for. However, a Needle up "my business" through the vaginal wall and into the ovary really isn't my cup of tea. I just don't really even think that sounds remotely fun. He claims I will be sedated but I don't care. THAT is going to hurt like a mother.

I guess we will wait and see what the Insurance comes back with.

Farewell Little Buddy.......

Today Jadyn's favorite friend and play buddy leaves for Europe to live for 1-2 years. His dad got a job over there for a few years. I am glad she doesn't understand but I am sad for her. What am I going to tell her when she wants to go see Rohan? She doesn't quite understand that it just isn't that easy.

Thursday we all got together for a one more time play date. We went to a place called Explore and More. The kids really love it there. Each little area in the front looks like a different country. Then they have an art room, a construction zone, building stuff, a wooden boat with fishing poles and fish, a market, a farm, a kitchen. It is just awesome in there. We sure are going to miss you Rohan :-(

Jadyn and Rohan at the construction site:

The fishing crew:

Just because she is so cute :

Tonight at 7:00 we are going to a hockey game. It will be Jadyn's first real hockey game. She is going to LOVE it!! Hopefully she will get to meet Sabretooth :-) They are having an autograph session after the game. We will have to get Jadyn's wee little Jersey autographed.

I also just ordered Jadyn's Wiggles tickets. We are going to see them on October 27th! We got a ticket for "mama" ( grandma) too. We can't wait!

The Great Glass Hunt

We had a very nice weekend. Saturday and Sunday evening both we went for a beach walk in the evening. I LOVE the beach after it has shut down for the season. There is hardly anybody there. Most of the time nobody is there. When I was a kid we used to walk the beach with my Aunt Ruthie and collect the lake glass. It is glass that has been worn down and washed up. It is very smooth. The most common colors are clear, brown and green. You usually get more clear than anything. However, every now and then you are the lucky one and you find a very beautiful sparkly blue piece. The one that finds the blue is the "winner". The winner of what? Who cares..... it's just fun.....

So, anyway, the last two nights we have taken Jadyn to the beach and walked and looked for beach glass. Jadyn actually is suprisingly awesome at finding the clear pieces. She finds them as quick as Sue or I do. We also get down on the sand and look at all the cool little shells we find. We collect a few of those too. Right now, we bring all of our glass home and throw in in a clear bottle. When it is all full we will make something artistic with it.

Well, Saturday evening we played with the metal detector for a little while and then THE GLASS HUNT WAS ON!!!! We really do have a lot of fun looking for that infamous blue piece. Just as we were getting ready to leave Sue starts hooting and hollering. She found the blue one. Well, she gave it to Jadyn to hold and Jadyn dropped it :::::::giggle:::::. No biggie, she still won :-) Sunday we went on the glass hunt for about 1.5 hours. NO blue piece. So, there was no winner lastnight.

On the way home we stopped at Dairy Queen for some yummy treats :-) Sue got a Peanut Buster Parfait. Jadey got a Hot Fudge Sunday with rainbow sprinkled. I got a Cookie Dough Blizzard and I brought a Cookie Dough Blizzard home for Dan too. We were pretty tuckered out by bedtime.

Here is a collage I made of a few of our sunset photos :-)

Consult October 1st with the RE

I have an appointment to go see the RE on October 1st. I had 3 unsuccessful tries with the same donor as Jadyn with two of the tries being on injections. I don't really know what the hell the problem is here. So, since I am out of the same donor as Jadyn I am going to see if maybe I can go back to the way I conceived Jadyn. If that is at all possible. We tried once and I didn't ovulate but I am willing to give it another shot. Something has got to give, right? Which also means.... IF I am trying again I have to go through the whole donor selection process AGAIN! The donor we had picked for Jadyn was just such a perfect match. He was the closest thing to Sue that I could find. So, I have to try to get over that the next donor may not be a "perfect" match to Sue and I. I am sure we will still get another perfect child though :-) I guess we will have to wait and see what October 1st brings us :-)

Spaghetti

Jadyn says the cutest things. She is quite the little pasta freak. She really really loves Spaghetti.
"Jadyn, would you like Spaghetti for lunch?"
" Es, Mommy" ( Yes does not have a Y in her vocabulary....lol)
"Can you say Spaghetti?"
"Gop-a-key"


:::::giggle:::::

God, I Love that kid. I make her say Spaghetti just because it is so damn cute how she says it!!!

Hockey, seizures, keys in trunk.......OH MY!!

Saturday morning we all got up, showered and dressed. We are going to go see the Buffalo Sabres open practice. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY Hockey season is starting. I think that was the longest 3 months of our lives...haha!!! We had a ball. We watched Hockey, took pictures, ate pizza and soft pretzels. It was so nice to just see Hockey again. Here are some photos of the practice:

Ryan Miller ( Goalie )

Maxim Afinigenov:

After practice we went in the Sabres store to look around. I saw Sue come in the store and asked where Dan ( my brother) was. She told me he had been right behind her and he was probably waiting out front. As we are in check out I see an ambulance and fire truck pull up. Sue jokingly says " You better go see if that is you brother"....haha!! Well, I go look and I recognize the shoes, the jersey..... OMG my brother is on the floor with paramedics leaning over him. He apparently had a 3 minute seizure. My brother has NEVER had a seizure disorder. Of course, I was scared to death to see him laying there. He has been through so much crap. He is cleaning up his life and trying to become a better person and all of this stuff just keeps happening to him. So, we sat the rest of the evening in a very busy E.R. They ran a ton of tests and have no idea why he had a seizure. I personally think it is from the concussion he got in his car accident a month ago. So, I have to take him for an EEG and hopefully they have some answers. My mom came up to stay over night too. We got home from the hospital at about 8 or so..... exhausted and tired.

Yesterday ( Sunday ) was Sue's Birthday. We decided we were going to take her to Breakfast. We go to IHOP's and had a very good time. We come out and we say goodbye's to Grandma ( My mom). Ummmmm, she locked her keys in the trunk. Great, now we have to call a Locksmith...... Jadyn didn't mind though, she got more time with Grandma and loved it. They walked around the lawn of IHOP's and collected pine cones. Well, we got my mom on her way home. Jadyn falls asleep in the car. I get her home and lay her down and hope maybe I can lay next to her and take a nap. Ummmm, Nope. Jadyn wants to get up, rip her clothes off and jump up and down on the bed. Okay, I am up...... So, we get up and go to the Sporting goods store. Sue wanted a few things for her to go scavenging with her metal detector....lol I guess she thinks she might find a nickel or dime....lol We went to Red Lobster for dinner and then to Target.

We are walking through Target. Jadyn of course had to go play with every toy in every aisle. We are walking through the kids clothes. We turn around and there stands Jadyn with her shirt off. I was laughing so hard I almost peed myself. She ran from us when we tried to catch her to put her shirt on yelling "No Mommy, No Moma, Monkey". She must have saw a monkey costume or something she thought she was going to put on....lmao It was hilarious.

So, we come home. I am bleeding full force :-( No baby this month. I am pretty bitter and sad. I am jealous of other pregnant women. I hate that some people sleep with the wrong person just one time and have a baby. I had SIX gosh damn eggs this month and NOTHING! I don't get it. I don't know what I did to deserve having such a difficult time. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE my Jadyn and am very very very grateful I have her. Another would be nice though. My heart hurts, but I am tired. I am tired of trying. I am tired of disappointment. I am tired of hundreds and thousands of dollars going to waste. This isn't easy.... not at all.....