Surreal

It still feels surreal that Chippy is gone. I find myself looking for him or wanting to yell for him to clean up something that has been dumped or spilled ( Mostly Jadyn's doings). Tyson ( thou-who-shall-not-touch-inappropriate-food) will only clean up the meaty stuff. The house just doesn't feel right without him. It feels empty. ( Cause god knows three other animals is not enough). It was always Chipper and Ty..... they just go together. Now, it's just Ty. That doesn't sound nearly as ringy.
I miss my boy! I DO NOT miss him being sick though. That was ugly. It was hard watching him wither away to nothing and only eat enough to survive the past 6 months. He was a very sick boy.
We miss you bunches Chipper boy!

Wordless Wednesday

R.I.P My Boy

Chipper is gone. He passed on Saturday Morning. We buried him today at my mom's house. I don't know what to say. I am sooooooo going to miss him. He was my best friend for 11 years. My companion. My confidant. He always listened. He snuggled me when I was sad and he was happy when I was happy. He was the best dog a person could have ever asked for. I can't believe my time with him is over. It seemed like we were together for a short time but then again it felt like forever. I can't stand the empty feeling I am having. I feel like my right hand is missing. Like a piece of me has been ripped away. I hate it! I hate everything about it. I will miss him so so so very much!!
I Love You Chippy Boy!! Life is going to be rough without you here. Hugs and Smooches my boy!!

It's really it this time.......

My dog probably won't be with us for much more than a few more days. He has refused to eat anything in the past few days. The last thing he ate was a hamburger from Burger King on Wednesday Night. He will only drink a little bit. He throws up nasty old brown yuck a few times a day. I do believe it is blood that is sitting in his tummy :-( I am really sad but I also don't really want to watch him be sick for much longer. He has been ill for quite some time and it is time for it to end. We are not putting him to sleep.... we are just going to let nature take its course. He is comfortable and is sleeping in my bed 99% of the time. We have him covered with baby blankets. Jadyn and I are at my mom's house for the weekend. He should have a pretty peaceful weekend at home with his other mommy.
I sure will miss him!!!

A little of this and a little of that

Dare I say it??

I believe my dog is starting to get better!! I have noticed that he is gaining weight again!! His face and belly don't look as skinny to me. He is starting to look normal again. Better than he has in a few months! Now, I do still have him on antibiotics. I am half afraid for when he isn't taking them anymore. I have a big fear that he is going to get sick again :-( I would rather just keep him on antibiotics the rest of his life........lol


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On another note, something rather bizarre happened today. Wait, let's just do a flashback to a few years ago first. I started my photography business about 3 years ago. Soon after my site went live I got a harassing email or two from another photographer in this area saying she was going to sue me and she said "You would think you would want something better for yourself seeing as though there is ALREADY a natural light photographer in the area". Well, honey, I hate to break the news but there more than just ONE other. I also heard through the grapevine that she would have felt differently if I would have asked her to mentor me. I like to figure things out on my own. I don't like to be a follower. I don't like being a leader either. I just like to be. Be me. Be myself. I like to do my own thing. Even if that means many trials and errors.
Anyway, whatever, life went on.
So, that brings me to this morning. I have this email in my inbox:

I am interested in some photos for my 6 year old daughter. I enjoy the fall in our area and was hoping you might be able to do some outdoor pictures of her when the leaves start to change. I loved the outdoor ones in your site. Could you also please suggest a few places for the session, especially the places on your website.

Thank you!

Lynn

That is fine. I mean that's a normal thing.....right? The first flag "Especially the locations on your website." Okay well, that's getting a little specific, yes? So then I am looking at the email and WALLLLLLAAAA the from address is soandso@whatever.com BUT right beside the email is the name. It was her!! It was the other photographers name starring at me right in the face........ Emailing me from some made up email account to try to get information from me.

Ya know, if she was looking for new locations all she had to do was ask. Seriously, How old are we? I have NO problems being social with said photographer. NONE! Hell, I have even considered hiring her to do my own family photos. Just because Bubba pumps gas at one gas station doesn't mean he can't be friends or social to Jimmy who pumps gas up the street. There is always competition. No matter what you do. That doesn't mean you have to cheat, steal and lie from your competitors.

OY!!!

My Old man......

My Bone Head is feeling a lot better lately. Of course, he is still skinny and sickly looking. He will only eat people food. Even a lot of that he won't eat. He really is LOVING hot dogs and scrambled eggs lately. This morning I even made him a hot dog omelet ( yuck). I think he thought he went to heaven. Tonight he ate some noodles with Chili juice over the noodles. He seemed to really like that, so I saved him the left over noodles and we have a WHOLE pot of Chili! I am still giving Chip antibiotics. His urine isn't as strong smelling but he did pee on my floor this afternoon. That is very very very unlike him so I know something funny is still going on in there. I hope whatever is wrong will soon go away with the antibiotics. I really believe he has a wicked urinary tract infection or a bladder infection.
In the mean time my other dog is eating way more than he should because Chipper only eats a little bit at a time. So, he is getting to be a chunker boy. I can't win.......lol
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We have been having a great weekend. Yesterday we took Jadyn to the playground for a little bit. We then went to Walmart and Jadyn got to buy her most favorite movie "Camp Rock". She was so excited. She also got a new pair of sneakers. She is now wearing a size 10!!! I think her donor may have been Big Foot. After that we went to Tops and Jadyn and I picked all of the stuff out to make chocolate chip cookies. So, when we got home Jadyn and I made yummy cookies together :-)
Today we have pretty much just hung out at home but it has been very eventful. This morning we went through all of Sue's clothes and she is giving a ton of them to our nephew Kyle. She has a ton of men's jeans and shirts she can't wear any more. He is going to make out like a little bandit. I, then, went through some of Jadyn's clothes. I am trying to find all of her old Gymboree outfits to list on ebay( I have a ton of 12-18 18-24 and 2T's if anybody is interested). I have to get them all washed and unwrinkled and the picture taking for ebay will begin.
Then, I started a crock pot of Chili for dinner. We then went through and packed up all of our CD's because our case is falling apart. Maybe just maybe one day my house will be in order?!?!?!

It's always something.....

This morning I got up early to edit photos. Usually when I come upstairs Sue is sitting on the couch drinking her coffee and watching the morning news. Well, nothing was different this morning. I didn't think anyways. I sit down to watch the news with her and the t.v is blank. The sound is coming out just fine. There is just no picture! Well, isn't this lovely?? Now, on top of everything else, we need a new TV. I need to be rich....... Seriously!!

Chipper is still doing well. I made him and Tyson some eggs, cinnamon toast and hot dogs for breakfast. Why is it I feel the need to make a dog breakfast food?? Do you think he really knows the difference between morning, noon and night??

Miraculos Recovery???

Ok, So I wouldn't exactly say a miraculous recovery but my dog is eating and drinking again. He is also able to go outside and go up and down the stairs. I thought for sure he was a goner. He has been sickly for a few months. He has lost a ton of weight and is pretty much skin and bones. Although he is not eating dog food, he will gladly let you make him a plate of people food.....lol
I have no idea what is going on with this dog. That will now raise the question " Why haven't you taken him to the vet?"
Well, here is my reasoning. Why am I going to pay hundreds, maybe even thousands to a vet for them to tell me he is sick? I have had him on antibiotics and I have dewormed him. He is actually on antibiotics for the 3rd time in a few months right now. I am not going to pay for x-rays for them to say "Oh, he has cancer." Obviously if it isn't an infection or a parasite of some sort then it is a terminal illness. What do you do with a dog that is eleven years old? Take him to the vet and spends hundreds or thousands of dollars for them to say there is nothing they can do?? He is happy and well-loved. He is just a skinny boy right now :-) He may never get better.... I don't know. Regardless, I will do what I can to make him comfy and happy. Even if that means giving him people food every day......lol

He's Dieing :-(

My buddy, my pal, my baby......... My dog Chipper has started to refuse food and water. He has been sick for a little while but while I was away this weekend he really decided to give up. We can get him to drink every now and then but he throws it back up after a little while. He is losing control of himself and lays in it. Of course we clean him up and lay him back down on clean blankets/towels. We have him sleeping on Jadyn's little couch with a garbage bag covering the couch and then some towels down. We also have him covered up with a baby blanket. If he isn't covered up he gets real cold and stiff.

I can't believe my life with him is about over. He was my first baby. He was my first dog. The first dog that was all mine. Not a childhood family dog. He has been an excellent friend. He is probably the only one that knows my most deepest secrets. He has been here through the good times and the bad. He has never given up on me and has always been my most best friend. He is one of the most loyal friends in the whole world. Chipper was my will to survive when times were hard. He would get happy and excited when I was happy. When I was sad he would come lay his head in my lap and be my shoulder to lean on. He is a very intelligent and funny boy. He is also the only Lab I know that doesn't know how to swim....lol I dont know how many times I had to save him.

Chipper my boy..... I am sure going to miss your companionship! I Love You my Bone Head :-(