Every time I log on to my daughter's donor group and someone else is pregnant again! Or even trying again. However, everybody that has tried has become successful BUT me. It makes my heart split in two. I HATE IT! I hate everything about it. I can feel my heart ripping in half. Why them? Why are they able to do it? What is wrong with Sue and I?
When we went to the psychic she also said I will never physically carry my own child again. She saw an Asian adoption in my future. I don't want to adopt a freakin' Asian kid. I WANT MY OWN!! For fucking crying out loud! How the hell did I get Jadyn so easy? This shit is for the god damn birds! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!